All Downhill From Here?

Have you ever been so scared of rejection, that you don't know what to do with yourself? What if it seems as though that fear has come true. And to make it all even worse, what if you are fearing something else at the same time? How about the unknown? That makes things even worse, right?

Today of all days, I've was riding an emotional rollercoaster. Work being the main culprit, family issues, then other things. Sometimes I wish I could just close my eyes and make them go away. But that will never happen, no matter how hard I try.

Sometimes when you fear the unknown, no matter how much it may hurt if you seek an answer and what you don't want, can be the only way one can become at peace with themselves. That includes trying to pick up the pieces and move on. Easier said than done. MUCH easier said than done, and it's not easy even saying it. This isn't so much fun. Not at all. I'm totally lost right now, but I need answers. I just pray that my heart wasn't given back to me.