I Knew It Was A Bad Idea

What most of you don't know, I ended up doing something at the end of last week that I swore up and down that I would never do. I signed up on Match.com. Yes, Kimberly Amanda Bryant paid $30 to try and do what a friend suggested. I did it, and I regret it. TOTALLY! Almost every guy who's looked at my profile is old enough to be my father. Seriously. Well, most of them in their 40's, but still. Only two guys were in their early to mid 20s. And the only guy to wink at me. A 53-year-old divorced man with three grown kids. I almost cried. Am I really that bad of a person that I only seem to attract old men? I don't get it. I've been traumatized by most of them since I was like 15 years old. Being sexually harrassed by old, disgusting men is SO gross. No wonder I don't like older guys. This whole thing sucks and I want my money back. I'm begining to belive that ten years from now, that I'm going to be another single, black woman who will be successful in her career, but will never get married, have kids, or have had a real boyfriend. I just hope that God has heard my prayers since I was 13 for a boyfriend and one day a husband, and is just waiting for the right time to make something happen for me. Why does everything else seem to work out for me, but when it comes to guys, they never do? Ugh! As of two minutes ago, I'm officially quitting my hunt/chase. It's hopeless. Glad everything else in my life is great!