A Reinvention

It's been a while. I'm going to spend more time here than I have before. I figured that it would be a good idea since I've deactivated my facebook, because I would like to spend more time writing, and working in the areas that I had gotten my degree in. Why not put it to use?

I found myself the other day admiring many people, the way they live, their accomplishments, and most importantly, how they live their lives to the fullest... without so much worry. I wish I were like that, and I want to become that way. Don't get my wrong, I don't want to change who I am, I love who I am, but I would like to branch out and embrace something new for once. Being carefree. I can only imagine how much better I would feel if I could just loosen up a little more. I used to be that way actually, about four or so years ago. I don't know what happened. I guess some of my mom's overprotectedness and sheltering traits she posses have worn off on me a bit. Even in my 20s, she still controlled just about every move I made until I moved out. Well, now I want to put that behind me and begin a new chapter in my life and better myself. How will I start? Well, I'm going to take off by myself for a few days on a whim, and do things I've never really done or held myself back from ever wanting to do. Tomorrow, I'm going to go relax in the sauna at my apartment complex :) . Yes, I've never really been in a sauna with a towel, because I was too shy to go in just a towel... but I'm embracing myself :).