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Hey you guys! I'm finally back online, and it feels good. Hmm, where do I begin. Things have been pretty crazy, and I've been very busy with work, life, etc. Now, I'm trying to relax and take in everything that's been going on around me. I'm glad that I've begun to make new friends around work. It's been a huge help. These days, my other friends are having less and less time for me.

Last week, one of my best friends had a baby. It was the most amazing thing, yet strange. I realized that our lives the way they were before she got married and pregnant, would be totally different. She's got a family now, and she's seemed to have grown so much, into this beautiful, graceful, loving mother and wife.

All of my friends seem to be taking off into a serious direction these days. But I have to realize that we aren't in high school anymore. People grow up and move on. It's part of life. Something I didn't mention was that seeing everything that my friend was experiencing let me know that I'm totally not ready for that stage of my life... at all. I want to be free, have fun, live my life, and see what I can accomplish on my own. Does it mean I don't want a relationship? Not at all. That I would like. I would love, actually. I want to be exclusive with someone and be in a relationship the way my roommate/best friend/like-a-brother is in. Exclusive, but not too serious. Time with my friends to do what I want and some alone time as well, but what am I saying all of this for? Not like it will happen anytime soon. I'm not that lucky. Ha ha! That's sad. I can't help but laugh at myself. Well, I better get going. Another day of work and overtime.