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A job opportunity arose, and it's actually one I've been waiting for. It would be a great opportunity for me to get out of my current position, move on up, and then see about making things happen between the person of interest and myself. At the same time, if I were to get this job, chances are the training would occur when I'm supposed to go see my best friend at the end of April. I really need the trip, because I've been going through a lot lately. Only a few people know, and since not many read my blog, I'm not too worried about lots of people learning what's been going on. I've been suffering from depression and will begin seeing a psychiatrist in the next week or two. I felt like a failure for a while, because I couldn't get a grip, move on from getting my heart broken, felt abandoned, and still in love with someone who once loved me. I couldn't get out of bed, I would cry uncontrollably everyday, forget where I was, in a daze, wouldn't eat, etc. I felt like I was in hell, but a cold, sad, and lonely place. I've never been this way in my entire life. I've been broken up over guys before, but this was different. Very different. However it is, I had to do something to help myself. I'll be okay. Anyway, my point is, I really need a vacation. I think my health and well-being is more important right now than trying to find another job and getting a guy... which I would more than likely fail at doing, since things never seem to work out for me. It sucks knowing that I met someone with my same personality, and would probably fail at winning them over. I need to focus on myself for now.